EPISODE 16 OF THE 20 NICE THINGS

GIVE MORE OF SELF

In 2017 i decided that i was going to stop trying to gratify myself and just be open to the needs of those who needed my help and were within my reach, it had to start within myself.  I always say in living our purpose is where we'll find our peace, how was this going to be possible if my family was not going to be a part of this journey? the people we love are the ones that hurt us the most because we often spend most of our lives trying to figure out their intentions and the basis of their actions, i heal very quickly when i'm disappointed by someone who is not family because i always save room for disappointment and i keep them at arms length.  But when in comes to my family, they have to go to same lengths i would for them, i expect us to be same, they have to treat me with the same sense of urgency.  If and when they fail to do so i find it very difficult for me to forgive them and at some point i felt it was only fair for me to let them deal with the results of their short comings, i turned into a stuck up, self righteous and bitter shell.  I took a chance at these imperfect beings that life has entrusted me with and carried their load without expecting anything in return.  In the last year it proved to be the best gift i would have gotten for myself.  I prayed, I loved and I gave my heart, my time and my laughter.  I embarked on the scariest journey i would embarked on.  Putting my fears, interests and thoughts out there is something would never dream about.   And now we are here, 20 nice things...let's see, mhhhhh I see a lot babies being born, I see new relationships blossoming and turning to bright, lively and colorful flowers, Lots of boundaries will be pushed and many toes will be stepped on, we are only wearing 8 inch heels this year, we are walking tall, we are bold and we achieving.  Most of all we are giving...

Giving is not decreasing the capacity of what you have, it is merely increasing the amount of possibilities of what you can get, blessings go to active vaults, give more and gain beyond what your understanding can ever comprehend. remember to laugh about it and at it...