LOVE IS THE FUEL TO KEEP GOING

Have you realized how we have things planned out when it comes to love? To everyone who is in love or the pursuit thereof, everything is cut and dry, you meet the perfect person, you love them with all of your heart, they love you back and you live happily ever after.  However that is not always the case the people we love the most tend not understand or see how much we love them, you may love a person will all your might and go out of your way to make sure they know it but find out they think you are pathetic, desperate and obsessed, what we fail to understand when we are in love is that every person has his or her way of interpreting love and they also know how they want to be loved, sometimes you may love people so bad that your love for them drives them away. In such instances we happen to find our faults and work tirelessly to grow from them and become better people, but if you are improving yourself for the same person who left you because your love for them was doing more harm than good, chances are you are in for an epic fail because it's not about how you have grown as a lover but to them it will always be about your love for them, remember that while you were working on yourself they were also living their lives and they are also not the same people they used to be, on the other hand to them you are still the same person especially because you never moved on, the fact that you are a better man or woman is a sure sign that you are worse than you were  before and therefore a danger to them, in other words what they see when they look at you they see a ticking time bomb.  It is a good thing to love the same person, it shows consistency in your personality and it also proves that you know what you want, but be careful not to love people beyond your own existence, love goes both ways, be woke enough to understand that how great people are does not mean they are open to everything.  Love often finds us when we're not looking because love is effortless and true.

Love yourself enough to wait for love that will love you the same way you love, it is greater if it's not taught...

LOVE IS THE FUEL TO KEEP GOING

Have you realized how we have things planned out when it comes to love? To everyone who is in love or the pursuit thereof, everything is cut and dry, you meet the perfect person, you love them with all of your heart, they love you back and you live happily ever after.  However that is not always the case the people we love the most tend not understand or see how much we love them, you may love a person will all your might and go out of your way to make sure they know it but find out they think you are pathetic, desperate and obsessed, what we fail to understand when we are in love is that every person has his or her way of interpreting love and they also know how they want to be loved, sometimes you may love people so bad that your love for them drives them away. In such instances we happen to find our faults and work tirelessly to grow from them and become better people, but if you are improving yourself for the same person who left you because your love for them was doing more harm than good, chances are you are in for an epic fail because it's not about how you have grown as a lover but to them it will always be about your love for them, remember that while you were working on yourself they were also living their lives and they are also not the same people they used to be, on the other hand to them you are still the same person especially because you never moved on, the fact that you are a better man or woman is a sure sign that you are worse than you were  before and therefore a danger to them, in other words what they see when they look at you they see a ticking time bomb.  It is a good thing to love the same person, it shows consistency in your personality and it also proves that you know what you want, but be careful not to love people beyond your own existence, love goes both ways, be woke enough to understand that how great people are does not mean they are open to everything.  Love often finds us when we're not looking because love is effortless and true.

Love yourself enough to wait for love that will love you the same way you love, it is greater if it's not taught...

MY ALTER EGO WOULD BE FUN AND...

This summer I would like to have an alter ego, does anyone know where I can buy one, but then again I don't think I'd be able to afford one, my bank balance is financially impaired.  I don't know if I'm having a mid-life crisis or I'm getting too comfortable with life that I'm beginning to believe boundaries do not apply to me?  all I know is that there is this person who is kind, thoughtful and committed to being a role model and within that person there's another one who is unapologetic about her perceptions and doesn't hesitate to put people in their place.  The issue here is that my good side over shadows my bad and wild one.  my alter ego will be everything I can't afford to become or rather not bold enough to be.  My alter ego would shamelessly put insensitive people in their people without paying mind to their emotions, not being afraid to say it when I think people's ideas suck, my alter ego would be able to initiate friendships and relationships with no effort, my alter ego would start topics that are considered taboo on social platforms who knows maybe even be a phone actress if you know what I mean, my alter ego would be shellfish with their time and be able to say no! more, my alter ego won't mind picking fights on social media just for the fun of it. It would....uhm

I think this alter ego thing should remain an idea, I might end up being a criminal just for the thrill of the possibility of getting caught.

It's the end of the year, let's celebrate it by doing things our normal selves would never dream of, as long as they are not done at other people's expense.

A LOVE LETTER TO MY SECRET LOVER

I woke up this morning wondering if you are okay, my heart sank as i realized that i was not there to kiss you good morning,  oh how i wish i was there by your side when you woke up this, i missed the soft grey fur throw that is always carefully spread across your bed, i don't know if it is the one that keeps me warm or the thrill i get each time i'm i remember that you are nothing but an illusion.  My greatest memories of being there are those of me waking up to an empty bed and beaming with joy knowing that you are downstairs preparing breakfast, the fresh smell of coffee making me count the steps of your feet on the wooden staircase as you lazily make your way up.  I smile because i know you are going to walk softly once inside your bedroom just so you don't startle me, i'm fascinated by the fact that you know that i hate surprises and you hate it when i'm grumpy.  I smile because i know its going to be a great day, yeah a great day because i saw my love, a perfect day because my love was the last thing i saw last night and today i am waking up to his pearly white smile and the softness of his eyes make mine teary.  I cry because my love for is secret.  I cry because no he is not there, he doesn't exist, he is a perfect but blurry illusion that exists only in my head. his love is real, his voice is true,but his touch is not mine...

Love is true, love pure and love lives inside each and everyone of us, love is what we make it out to be.  If you give love the universe will surely bring love back to you a hundred fold.❤❤❤

WHEN WE WERE STILL NAIVE

Her strokes were sceptic

It found out that he liked me and it drew closer so it could find out what is it that I had that made me a better person than it was.  I loved clothes, yes I was fashion crazed, unfortunately for me my dad who believed people could wear anything they wanted only if they could afford to pay for them.  And I had a friend who came from a completely different family she had the latest fashion items and always had the trendiest hairstyles.  I wanted someone who had shared the same views on fashion and how clothes defined identity. My demon filled that gap, we had a lot of things in common and we almost had the same aspirations and well I had a better chance of achieving them because my parents believed in education and for them it was the best gift any parent would give to their children.  It was my DEMON and I loved it, embraced it and took care of it, I gave up a lot of things for it only for it to go please others with them.  It slowly unpacked who aspired to be, and if I had something it secretly wished for, it would make sure didn't enjoy that privilege.  Why did I continue to be with demon? I was naive and young and the sad truth about me is that I hold on to the good about bad people and well I have these urge to help strays, I love mothering way too much that I would break my back trying to save someone who didn't even need saving.  On one fateful day I went to let my DEMON know that I had being offered a post in a well-known bank, it was the something I always wanted and I was over the moon and I had to share with someone who understood that, I saw the green in its eyes, It demanded to know when had I applied for that position and how did I find out that they were hiring, I didn't know if those are the questions we ask people we are happy for?  but I would never congratulate anyone in that manner. Since then she has shown me more than once that she has always been my rival and that every time she has cheered me on was just so steer me in the wrong direction and to set me up for failure. Yes she stroked me each time I was down but it was only to infect my wounds and make sure I never had another shot at getting up.  it took me time to realise that I have dreams that I had put on hold, I developed a fear for going after what I wanted despite having carefully planned strategies to see them through and heaps of years of wasted ideas and dead end ventures. Do I blame her?  No, I am happy she came into my life and I am happy she revealed her true colours and I am happy that she made me realize that snakes won't change and not everyone deserves our pity.

Lesson learned : Have your own future figured out, stay true to your self and change your situation around without taking advice from people who don't know where they are headed. 

#Woza2019