When it's time for them to go, let them...

One of the truths about living a good life is the sad reality that your greatness will be uncomfortable for many of those you once shared dreams with. I always believed that my sole purpose on this earth was to bring hope and comfort to the lives of those around me, however lately I have been slapped with the mother of all rude awakenings, yes I have had those people who gave given me the best moments in life and yes they have seen me through my most painful and weakest times and for such reasons I believed that we were made for each other.  What changed? What could I have done? I sat down and asked myself this questions as I saw their faces look on without even a glimpse of interest as I shared my achievements, could the sudden shift in my life be the reason for such cold reactions, or is it because we prayed together, shared ambitions and dreams and wanted the same things?  We may have done all that but the sad truth is that we didn't  have the same hunger, my hunger was too zealous for me to ignore, it consumed my very soul, it ate away the life in me and I had to survive, yes I had to let the fire burning inside of me to run wild.  And when the time came for me to choose between my hunger and your loyalty, I chose me. And for those reasons I will understand if you walk away and never look back, as I am the one who opened the door.  I won't hold it against you if you never send me postcards or even reply to my messages and I hope you will find it in your heart to forgive me.

Good bye my love, my sister and my friend, you loved me, cried with me and Fed me when I was hungry, your love I'll forever cherish, I'm sorry I couldn't keep you and I pray that those you have will...

Love always

your disloyal friend

LOVE IS IN THE AIR

❤❤❤YOU COULDN'T HAVE COME AT A BETTER TIME

February the month of love, like i have said before if you give love genuinely it will always come back to you.  It is only now i have come to realize that love is not when you find someone who loves you truly, treats you right and gives you their whole existence, but it is when you find that one person who makes you realize that it takes the smallest things to see things differently.  The kind of person who will just make your heart skip a bit just by merely looking at you, when love comes back to you it teaches you not to overlook the heart that secretly prays for you and worries whether it can carry you and your flaws.  I have loved, i have been in love, i have also been hurt and i have also have left hearts broken, but its only now i can safely say i have made a choice to love you without any fear of you not loving me the same way.  Yes i have made a choice to love you till you ask me to stop, i have chosen to love you until you don't want to receive my love...I choose to love you truly, purely, peacefully and with an expectant heart.

I choose love and i choose to love without any fear and regret❤❤❤

It is the month of love choose to do things differently💋💋💋💋💋

EPISODE 16 OF THE 20 NICE THINGS

GIVE MORE OF SELF

In 2017 i decided that i was going to stop trying to gratify myself and just be open to the needs of those who needed my help and were within my reach, it had to start within myself.  I always say in living our purpose is where we'll find our peace, how was this going to be possible if my family was not going to be a part of this journey? the people we love are the ones that hurt us the most because we often spend most of our lives trying to figure out their intentions and the basis of their actions, i heal very quickly when i'm disappointed by someone who is not family because i always save room for disappointment and i keep them at arms length.  But when in comes to my family, they have to go to same lengths i would for them, i expect us to be same, they have to treat me with the same sense of urgency.  If and when they fail to do so i find it very difficult for me to forgive them and at some point i felt it was only fair for me to let them deal with the results of their short comings, i turned into a stuck up, self righteous and bitter shell.  I took a chance at these imperfect beings that life has entrusted me with and carried their load without expecting anything in return.  In the last year it proved to be the best gift i would have gotten for myself.  I prayed, I loved and I gave my heart, my time and my laughter.  I embarked on the scariest journey i would embarked on.  Putting my fears, interests and thoughts out there is something would never dream about.   And now we are here, 20 nice things...let's see, mhhhhh I see a lot babies being born, I see new relationships blossoming and turning to bright, lively and colorful flowers, Lots of boundaries will be pushed and many toes will be stepped on, we are only wearing 8 inch heels this year, we are walking tall, we are bold and we achieving.  Most of all we are giving...

Giving is not decreasing the capacity of what you have, it is merely increasing the amount of possibilities of what you can get, blessings go to active vaults, give more and gain beyond what your understanding can ever comprehend. remember to laugh about it and at it...

2019 THE YEAR OF...THE GREAT, THE GREATER AND THE GREATEST

...A YEAR OF ACCOMPLISHMENTS, GRATIFICATION AND BECOMING

Last year was a great year for me because i saw myself being at peace with my spirituality, purpose, emotional and mental state of being.  I learnt that success is not necessarily about monetary gain or material possession, but it is about knowing what you want and how to get it and still keeping your integrity intact, i learned that being true to your destiny and being at peace with the fact one's achievement is measured individually can and will determine how quick you will achieve all that lies in wait for you to claim.  I cried, i prayed and i started.  And i want to proclaim that i am conquering.  Someone said 2019 meant 20 nice things and as it is the 14th day i am already sitting on 5 nice things that i least expected, now i know what it is meant by "if you want something bad enough the whole universe conspires around you to receive it".  I had put down proposals and i never pitched them to anyone and i have seen God pitching them on my behalf.  I promise to embrace all the good that #20nicethings has in store for me, i am less about questioning and a whole lot about enjoying and appreciating.  I have realized that some good things come in the simplest packages and often at times we overlook them.  I also promise to forget a little about polished gold and focus more on exploring and finding raw gold and leaning to bring its beauty into life.  I promise to give a lot of myself and my growing relationship with the Vaal Triangle.  In 2019 we will be interacting with a lot of ground breaking individuals who carry the same love and burden i have for my beloved home town...

It is a new year, a new era and a time for great things to be attained...knock on doors you never thought you would even look at and take the scariest paths, life can only get better.

LOVE IS THE FUEL TO KEEP GOING

Have you realized how we have things planned out when it comes to love? To everyone who is in love or the pursuit thereof, everything is cut and dry, you meet the perfect person, you love them with all of your heart, they love you back and you live happily ever after.  However that is not always the case the people we love the most tend not understand or see how much we love them, you may love a person will all your might and go out of your way to make sure they know it but find out they think you are pathetic, desperate and obsessed, what we fail to understand when we are in love is that every person has his or her way of interpreting love and they also know how they want to be loved, sometimes you may love people so bad that your love for them drives them away. In such instances we happen to find our faults and work tirelessly to grow from them and become better people, but if you are improving yourself for the same person who left you because your love for them was doing more harm than good, chances are you are in for an epic fail because it's not about how you have grown as a lover but to them it will always be about your love for them, remember that while you were working on yourself they were also living their lives and they are also not the same people they used to be, on the other hand to them you are still the same person especially because you never moved on, the fact that you are a better man or woman is a sure sign that you are worse than you were  before and therefore a danger to them, in other words what they see when they look at you they see a ticking time bomb.  It is a good thing to love the same person, it shows consistency in your personality and it also proves that you know what you want, but be careful not to love people beyond your own existence, love goes both ways, be woke enough to understand that how great people are does not mean they are open to everything.  Love often finds us when we're not looking because love is effortless and true.

Love yourself enough to wait for love that will love you the same way you love, it is greater if it's not taught...

LOVE IS THE FUEL TO KEEP GOING

Have you realized how we have things planned out when it comes to love? To everyone who is in love or the pursuit thereof, everything is cut and dry, you meet the perfect person, you love them with all of your heart, they love you back and you live happily ever after.  However that is not always the case the people we love the most tend not understand or see how much we love them, you may love a person will all your might and go out of your way to make sure they know it but find out they think you are pathetic, desperate and obsessed, what we fail to understand when we are in love is that every person has his or her way of interpreting love and they also know how they want to be loved, sometimes you may love people so bad that your love for them drives them away. In such instances we happen to find our faults and work tirelessly to grow from them and become better people, but if you are improving yourself for the same person who left you because your love for them was doing more harm than good, chances are you are in for an epic fail because it's not about how you have grown as a lover but to them it will always be about your love for them, remember that while you were working on yourself they were also living their lives and they are also not the same people they used to be, on the other hand to them you are still the same person especially because you never moved on, the fact that you are a better man or woman is a sure sign that you are worse than you were  before and therefore a danger to them, in other words what they see when they look at you they see a ticking time bomb.  It is a good thing to love the same person, it shows consistency in your personality and it also proves that you know what you want, but be careful not to love people beyond your own existence, love goes both ways, be woke enough to understand that how great people are does not mean they are open to everything.  Love often finds us when we're not looking because love is effortless and true.

Love yourself enough to wait for love that will love you the same way you love, it is greater if it's not taught...

MY ALTER EGO WOULD BE FUN AND...

This summer I would like to have an alter ego, does anyone know where I can buy one, but then again I don't think I'd be able to afford one, my bank balance is financially impaired.  I don't know if I'm having a mid-life crisis or I'm getting too comfortable with life that I'm beginning to believe boundaries do not apply to me?  all I know is that there is this person who is kind, thoughtful and committed to being a role model and within that person there's another one who is unapologetic about her perceptions and doesn't hesitate to put people in their place.  The issue here is that my good side over shadows my bad and wild one.  my alter ego will be everything I can't afford to become or rather not bold enough to be.  My alter ego would shamelessly put insensitive people in their people without paying mind to their emotions, not being afraid to say it when I think people's ideas suck, my alter ego would be able to initiate friendships and relationships with no effort, my alter ego would start topics that are considered taboo on social platforms who knows maybe even be a phone actress if you know what I mean, my alter ego would be shellfish with their time and be able to say no! more, my alter ego won't mind picking fights on social media just for the fun of it. It would....uhm

I think this alter ego thing should remain an idea, I might end up being a criminal just for the thrill of the possibility of getting caught.

It's the end of the year, let's celebrate it by doing things our normal selves would never dream of, as long as they are not done at other people's expense.